The Diary of Disorder

My starting weight is 136...
Today was my first success in a while:

Soup 160
Small apple 50
Red Bull 10
Jenny Craig meal 260
Espresso + cream 35

That's around 515 cals :) I'm happy. Right after this post I'm going to do a little coniditoning before I head off to bed. Plus I worked tonight (at a tanning salon) and I swear I always end up burning quite a few cals due to all the running around and cleaning.

I vow not to weigh myself for a few days (at least like 4) just so that I don't get discouraged...which I do very easily. That's just waiting for a trigger to binge.

108 is my ultimate goal, I feel that would look really good on me since I'm 5'7. :D can't waitttttt

I'm not...I'm not fat. I'm just...not where I'd like to be. Well luckily there's only a week left of school. Thank God. Because being vegetarian + those cafeteria lunches = fat thighs and love handles for Taylor. Now that it's only exam week (meaning we get out at noon) I can ACTUALLY focus on weight loss. WOOHOO! My goal is to lose about 20 pounds. I'm not sure how long it takes to lose that much, but let's pray it's short enoughs so I can enjoy a 110-115 pound body during the summer.

Current Stats:

Height: 5'7
Weight: 132
Body Fat %: 23.4 (my scale tells me my bf%...good or bad...it tells me haha)
BMI: 20.7
GW 1: 120
GW 2: 115
(we'll take it from there :)

I figure, per 5 pounds I lose, I'll take myself out shopping !! woohoo. 125 here I come bitch!
I'm not going to stick to a strict diet, I'll just eat when I have to (I.E. around friends, etc) and only peices of fruit or veggies anytime else. Also...an assload of working out. We're talking kickass. Abs 5 days a week...Cardio everday...areobic weights 2-3 times a week...as much as I can fit in!! I need to lose weight...it's depressing.

( Current picture of me in a bikini )

I'm doing pretty well. Here's my current stats: (my entries have been short lately cuz I'm posting to communities for the most part)

Age: 16
Height: 5'7
Weight: 128.0
Body Fat %: 20.5
BMI: 20.0
HW: 132
LW: 118
GW 1: 120
GW 2: 115

I can do this :)

( Random recent pics!! It's been a while since I posted pics! :D )